No end to grief

Searching for an ending to Dubious Grief - when still locked in the process of grieving. Trying to end the memoir while I know my grieving is not done. How to accomplish this perplexes me - my mind noodles through many possibilities. My promise to readers - ending the book on a hopeful note - is difficult to fulfill when my grieving journey continues. Drafting many versions of the "final chapter" only leads to more confusion. Perhaps as the title suggests, grieving is dubious - uncertain - never ending. I continue to write, write, write searching for the end. Selfishly I need to let this grief go.